Quelques fois.

Do we have what it takes when hope and clarity melt away 
To rise above our mistakes
If we don’'t know any other way 
And we're just too scared to try
 

Sometimes there can be so much more beyond what we see 
Sometimes I'm amazed how we see the world in different ways 

Sometimes I'm afraid of what I might not get to say 
And we're just too scared to try 

 
When it feels like there is nothing left 
It feels like this is as good as it gets 
It feels that way sometimes
So let's take a second and catch our breath
And realize this isn't over yet 
It just feels that way sometimes.

Hope, keeps me going. 

First trip down memory lane...

When the clock strikes 12am, it marks a new day, a new morning, and... it's a public holiday in France! Hehe I mean, how often I get an off day just like that out of the packed schedule of classes, so I'm glad even if it's just a day. And as usual, when I got alittle free time, I like to look back those old pictures in my many computer folders. Guess what I found in just ONE folder?

I miss them all  :'(

All or Nothing.

It's either I want it all...or nothing at all.

Geography, will you be my friend?

On a cold and freezing Sunday morning, I stepped into the church sanctuary. Today was one of those days when I could only understand un moitié, a part. We had a special speaker today, and he talked about Daniel and his three friends whom were thrown into the fire. After service, I slipped through the crowd and headed for the door, when suddenly a woman and a man came to greet me and ask how was I doing. They were kind and friendly. I hope the time will come soon when I can understand fully and talk to them fluently. For now, I just need to hang in there right?

Tomorrow, there's no morning class! Yet in the noon, we'll have a Geography test, based on France map. A huge BOOHOO for me, when Mr. Geography has been mean to me all these years. The terms and names of the places just seemed so.... tough to me. Once I made such a silly mistake on the countries till now I'm being laughed by my friends here. Mr. Geography, will you be my friend?

P/s: I'm glad I had good conversations today. My family back in Msia, Ah Ker, my friends...you know who you are :)

Robert Soh punye anak perempuan.

Autumn is leaving, winter is coming. In other words, it's getting so much colder nowadays and I need a new wardrobe of winter clothings. I've been wearing layers and layers of clothes just to keep myself warm, and it's rather tough especially when my blouses are shrinking or it's just I'm gaining weight and they looked pretty tight on me. I think the second reason is the truth. I've been gaining weight since I came here, so attention to everyone back in Malaysia, Christine is no longer the slim tiny little girl.

Early this morning, my friends and I went to Freiburg, Germany to shop. And yeap, my hands were itching to shop since I went to Paris with my parents. Yet today was a beautiful day with a wonderful weather, shopped for some of my winter stuff and pretty satisfied with what I bought. Everytime when I go shopping, I will tell myself, it's okay if it's not that cheap, as long as I will always use it and make it worth it as much as I've paid for it. Arrived back in Colmar around 6pm, still early but yet it was all dark already. Winter is coming, what do we expect right.

And the one thing that I'm touched by today, is my dad. He actually waited for me till 2am in Malaysia and called me to make sure I'm back home in my studio safely. I....I'm just really touched.

That's my awesome dad  :)

SI TU LE VEUX, tu peux me rendre pur.

I told myself, I need a refreshing. I really need a refreshing. Honestly been dry these few weeks. Today, with 25 hours for the first time in my life, I went to church on an early Sunday morning. A friend of mine told me there was a possibility that there'll be no service today due to a big church gathering, but I told myself, I have to go. I have to go. And indeed, I really was blessed by today's church service.

During the early days, I could barely understand those songs, sermons, and even what were the annoucements! Imagine, sitting down on the bench, looking up the person talking on the pulpit, completely...BLANK! Back in Malaysia, we may find it hard to stay focus if we found the sermon the 'oldschool version', uninteresting or whatsoever. But when I'm here in France, my strength and desire were really challenged. It's tough to continue going every week when I don't feel belonged, I don't understand. That was what I thought. Sang the lyrics without completely understanding the meaning. So different from where I grew to be commited in church.

But today, I thank and praise God. I was glad that I'm beginning to understand more. And I could relate to the sermon well today, thank God. I needed an encouragement, I really needed one, and through the sermon, I knew I can stand back on my feet again. The pastor today shared about the leper in the Book of Mark. When a leper came to Jesus and asked "If You are willing, You can make me clean." And I was moved by how Jesus reacted after that phrase; He was moved with compassion and He stretched out His hand and touched him, a leper, whom was unclean. It shows how much Jesus loves us, even if we were filled with uncleanliness, sins, so much sin, that He is right there willing to forgive us.

Forgive me Lord...

And Lord, thank you for a new start.

Je les aime!

Hey you, my blog whom I miss writing to. It's been centuries since my last post, never been able to find the time to write a complete post. Either I wrote half way or just the title. So many things happened since I last wrote. Many places I've went, awesome things I've seen and experienced! For instant, my parents came over to France for 10days to visit their little girl here. It was really sweet and heart-warming gesture that they made for me. Thank you Paps Moms! I really had a great superb time with them both, although ten days was just more than a week, it will always be my good memories. Before my parents arrived, I was all gittering in happiness and butterflies in my stomach. Bought loads of groceries, cleaned my whole studio and added an extra bed and a table. All set for my parents.

On Saturday morning, Shahidan and Shan are such great friends, that they willingly came along with me to Strasbourg to meet my parents. My heart screamed in joy when I saw papa and mommy in the train and I ran towards it even before the train stops. Like a little girl, I hugged them for the first time in four months since I came to Colmar. It made me feel like home, haha just forgive me if I'm making all these like a drama. I'm just still a homesick girl. We took the boat/le bateau around the ville and it was such a good sight, with those ancient buildings all over. My parents finally saw how big is the food portion per person here. So, really...that's the main reason why I gained weight! By night, we came back to Colmar and it felt so good that my studio was filled with their voices, their little scoldings...

During the whole ten days, I planned an agenda for them muahaha. I know I was alittle bad, to plan all these by myself even when they said it wasn't necessary. Hehe thank God for sporting parents like them!

Saturday: Visit Strasbourg.
Sunday: Visit Le Haut-Kœnigsbourg, an old, gigantic, historical castle.
Monday: Visit CEL (the place where I'm studying the langauge) and le centre ville in Colmar.
Tuesday: Visit Bale, Switzerland.
Wednesday: Visit Mulhouse.
Thursday: Rest in Colmar.
Friday: Visit Freiburg, Germany.
Saturday till Monday: In Paris!

Many pictures taken, but I'll upload them the next time aite. All in all, it was such a great time that all these will always be in my heart and a part of me in France right now  :D