SI TU LE VEUX, tu peux me rendre pur.

I told myself, I need a refreshing. I really need a refreshing. Honestly been dry these few weeks. Today, with 25 hours for the first time in my life, I went to church on an early Sunday morning. A friend of mine told me there was a possibility that there'll be no service today due to a big church gathering, but I told myself, I have to go. I have to go. And indeed, I really was blessed by today's church service.

During the early days, I could barely understand those songs, sermons, and even what were the annoucements! Imagine, sitting down on the bench, looking up the person talking on the pulpit, completely...BLANK! Back in Malaysia, we may find it hard to stay focus if we found the sermon the 'oldschool version', uninteresting or whatsoever. But when I'm here in France, my strength and desire were really challenged. It's tough to continue going every week when I don't feel belonged, I don't understand. That was what I thought. Sang the lyrics without completely understanding the meaning. So different from where I grew to be commited in church.

But today, I thank and praise God. I was glad that I'm beginning to understand more. And I could relate to the sermon well today, thank God. I needed an encouragement, I really needed one, and through the sermon, I knew I can stand back on my feet again. The pastor today shared about the leper in the Book of Mark. When a leper came to Jesus and asked "If You are willing, You can make me clean." And I was moved by how Jesus reacted after that phrase; He was moved with compassion and He stretched out His hand and touched him, a leper, whom was unclean. It shows how much Jesus loves us, even if we were filled with uncleanliness, sins, so much sin, that He is right there willing to forgive us.

Forgive me Lord...

And Lord, thank you for a new start.